Music swirls and swells, resting gently on their shoulders as the stars announce their arrival one by one. She doesn't shy from his nearness like usual. Instead, she smiles as layers of responsibility crumble away and dissipate into the twilight. She feels beautiful and free, because resting in her own skin seems "enough" for tonight.
There's just one simple request...love the one God gave.
If her thoughts sang out like a melody, they'd resonate in the hearts of so many of us who fail to be everything to everybody...
"I see you sitting by my side," she'd say to him. "I know you've been here all along, but our life is loud and the kids are louder. I see you. You're as handsome as ever, you know. What do you see when you look at me? I hope I look beautiful beyond the tired. The work was long this week. Yes, I know it won't be this way forever. Some days it just feels like it.
I want a million different things, most of which, I tuck away for 'later' because today has too many demands of its own.
The kids have been wonderful and awful all in the same moments - the hardest gifts and the most rewarding challenges. I lie in bed each night wondering if I've done enough, wondering who I might have let down today. Wondering if you're still proud to call me yours.
And so, I pray. A lot. And some days I go away and leave you behind. Some days I welcome distraction and entertain unnecessary "busy". Other times, I retreat inside the quiet and safer parts of me...when I'm overwhelmed, or sad, or don't think I've done enough.
I'm so sorry for all the times you've noticed me missing.
I think you understand, but I really need you to know...
I'll always come back. This woman you chose all those years ago, I'm still here. Loving you. Some days you just need to help remind me of where we started."
Praying for all of your "come backs" this week, my beautiful friends!
“A man doesn’t own his marriage; he is only the steward of his wife’s love.”
Edwin Louis Cole
"Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love." Eph. 4:2
M.S. in Marriage and Family Therapy. Earns Crossfit participation trophies. Disaster cook. Enthusiastic wife. #Boymom. Clutches her faith, not her pearls.