I was a senior, just eighteen and headed to college the next fall. Dressed in my most "professional" garb for the interview, I must have looked like a five-year-old dressed in her mommy's high heels. At the very least, I walked into the office that way. My stomach was churning, nervous tears were held behind a wall of "hold yourself together", and I briefly debated citing a stomach bug as retreat.
The principal and superintendent at my high school had organized practice interviews and we were required to sign up. They rated us based on our performance and gave feedback so that we could improve our skills before our actual interviews. There was test preparation, application-writing instruction, and question and response. Anything that I could do on the computer was just fine by me, but to sit vulnerable and examined in front of the envisioned gatekeepers of my future was terrifying.
They'll see that my grades don't mean anything - I don't really know what I'm doing with my future.
What if they don't like my personality? Somebody said one time that I didn't have a great personality.
Do I look silly? This is all I had to wear.
Pronounce all of your words correctly, Meg, and try to use a big one every now and again.
I was so stuck inside my own head - ruminating and worrying - there was no way I would connect well with the interviewers sitting right there in front of me. They asked about my experience of high school and I started crying. Right there in front of them, in all my mascara'd glory, I bombed as my "professional" walls came crumbling down. I'd prepared all the right answers, but they broke through with a personal question.
Definition "Bombed" -
When our insides are at peace, our outsides are too.
James 1:2-4 says this:
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."
The word, "complete" used here is actually the word, Shalom.*
Shalom means: completeness, soundness, welfare, peace*
When we receive God's peace, it's not just peace, it's becoming "complete" in Him. We lack nothing as He gives us every bit of know-how to carry out the plans He's called us to. I don't know what your challenges will be this week. Neither can I predict which emotional sparks may take you back to places you've forgotten about. But, know this. The God who gives us strength to persevere promises peace to those who trust Him.
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M.S. in Marriage and Family Therapy. Earns Crossfit participation trophies. Disaster cook. Enthusiastic wife. #Boymom. Clutches her faith, not her pearls.